Okay, first the good news...just went yesterday to check my white cell levels after taking the first of 3 maintenance chemos & they were great...YAY!
Now, the icky news...I've been having pains in my toenails, but the new med I'm on is even more diabolical on nail beds. The sheets even hurt to lay on them. It feels like someone slammed a hammer down on my toes! I'm kinda bummed that they are starting to curl and change shapes & I'm actually scared I'm gonna lose a few of them. I have a bad head, lopsided boobies, a scar from my c-section and I'm white as a sheet cuz I can't be out in the sun...all I had left were cute feet...no more! I gotta say,it takes a strong woman to feel pretty while undergoing chemo & I'm not THAT strong...I feel like an alien! LOL!
Now, the icky news...I've been having pains in my toenails, but the new med I'm on is even more diabolical on nail beds. The sheets even hurt to lay on them. It feels like someone slammed a hammer down on my toes! I'm kinda bummed that they are starting to curl and change shapes & I'm actually scared I'm gonna lose a few of them. I have a bad head, lopsided boobies, a scar from my c-section and I'm white as a sheet cuz I can't be out in the sun...all I had left were cute feet...no more! I gotta say,it takes a strong woman to feel pretty while undergoing chemo & I'm not THAT strong...I feel like an alien! LOL!
That is how you view yourself, I see a beautiful strong woman! Hang in there.
ReplyDeleteThanks so much! There are days that are better than others...sometimes I gotta tell myself to squash the vanity and love living!!
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